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[May. 19th, 2006|04:14 pm] |
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Yay, it's summer. Lot's of free time..... lots of not fucking to do. |
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| Same ol Same ol Alex |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Postal Service - Nothing Better | ] |
Well... it is a new year techniquelly... but I am anxious to see if it really will be a new year after all. Things are just crazy right now... crazy as in super good at fucking things up. I don't know, i'll figure it out one day... or die tryin I suppose. I think I lost the one closest thing to me... AHH!!
Yeah, I kind of quit my job... whoops! Anyone hiring?
Oh wait, there is more, it gets sweeter. My mom thinks I just sit in my room and watch porn on my computer all day long.. awesome!! Unfortantely sometimes I like to illegally play poker online.. so I am locked away in my room so I don't get in trouble.. so I just have to pretend I watch porn all day.. fucking awesome!! I got a lot of things on my mind and should get off of my chest... perhaps another day...
*FINAL THOUGHT*
I miss the good ol days |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|09:02 am] |
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Ahh, December. I am so glad it is here. I am really looking forward to Christmas this year.. way more than I have in many years. I'm not quite sure why, I just can't wait. Maybe it could be caused due to my whole being extra stuck in a rut right now. UGH! I hate it.. but even though I hate it, I can't seem to find the way to get out of it. I don't know.. I guess i've just been really depressed lately and unable to function, I really don't know why and I know the holidays will make me really happy. I'm just really sluggish and then only function I seem to have is to lay in bed and sleep all day, except I then lay in bed forever at night. I got one hour of sleep last night, that was sweet. And I got 3 hours of networking, how boring! Plus I gotta work.. ugh.. work... it's just a horrible place for me to be. Especially with my i'm down and just don't really give a fuck attitude. I'll tell ya right now, half assed cooking tonight. Except for when I cook for me, I hate that place so much, i'm going to eat like 20 bucks worth of food tonight for sure. The cooks don't get paid enough, so fuck em. I can't wait to tell them how I can't work Saturday night, i'm scheduled 5-close. whoopsies! That's their own dumbass faults. Let us see.. on my availability I said I couldn't work Saturday nights, what a bunch of dumb fucks. The only people I feel bad for is the other cooks that have to bust there ass harder cause I won't be there, but everyone else, whatever!
This entry was going to be 3 sentences long, just me saying how it's December, and snowing, and i'm excited, and I will be happy soon... however, it appears I have a lot to rant about.
Happy December everyone! |
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| The 3rd time's the charm? |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|02:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Death Cab - Soul Meets Body | ] |
I have been having many unspoken life problems for about a year now, I talk to no one. Even those closer than closest to me, my life is but a lie. I only have one more shot at this, I am young, no big set backs, practically on track! Nice starting school a year early, to make up for my pathetic mistakes. I have been thinking how to get over the hump, and it's all quite simple really. I've tried thinking of many things, the armed services... new career path.. and just moving far away all alone, which I am still considering. If I move away, failure will not be an option, I have to survive, this could be a good life experience for me. Even the armed forces would be great, but I want to think that I am mentally strong enough to do it on my own, even though I am weak.. I want to believe I can do it without someone yelling at me all the time.
However, all of these solutions aren't the right ones. I am going to just stay right here, stay close to my support system, the solution is quite a simple formula. I have to build my waffles. That's all, just make my waffles and everything will be fine. I actually believe this is true! I plan on joining the Y tomorrow (well ASAP), i'm fat and ugly and out of shape, this will be a great waffle builder, also, I am going to work a lot more hours, this will help, plus, I play indoor soccer on Saturday nights. I think this will create a good base for my success.
Anyone got some more waffle building tools for me?
I can do this... I will not fail... I can do this.... I can do this... |
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[Oct. 19th, 2005|10:41 pm] |
lol... this instead of homework... i never do quizes.. i guess i just really hate this homework right now...
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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| Restless.. |
[Sep. 22nd, 2005|10:16 am] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
Hello out there.. Does anyone want to have some casual no strings attached sex? |
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| After 71 weeks... this is my update!!?!?! Ugh. |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|12:30 pm] |
Sorry, but I thought it was cool, and I wanted to share my joy (I seent it from Dan B-P.. who took it from Emily?)
directions: type "[your name] is", including the quotes, into a google search. cut-and-paste the first ten responses that work. just pull the answers right out of the excerpt google shows you, don't click the link and search around. the only rule is that each one has to start with "[your name] is".
1. Alex is OK
2. Alex Is the BEST
3. Alex is catching on
4. Alex Is Blazing
5. Alex Is DeaD???
6. Alex is no ordinary bird brain
7. Alex is the absolute best
8. Alex IS a great cook!
9. Alex is early pick
10. Alex is the write choice |
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